i can smell summer around the corner

Thankfully. This time of year, as corny as it may sound, makes you feel as if your slowly being pulled out of a snowy cold depression. You start to wear flip flops out at the slightest increases in warm weather. Shorts appear from their hiding places. Tank tops get moved from the back of the closet to the front. Everything about it is so refreshing.

I love driving home from work each day and seeing the new trees and plants springing to life. And it is always a welcome and anticipated change each year.

Tonight the BF is going on his first mountain bike ride of the season. He was like a 10 year old this morning being told he gets to go to the amusement park. Hilarious. I kicked off the season with a fresh pedicure last night. Tonight perhaps a walk around the park; reading on the patio; dinner and wine with friends. It all sounds just perfect.

Hello summer.

nursery decorations

Hold on a second, no, I’m not expecting. Let’s just clear that up right away.

But, this past year has been filled with lots of people I know adding to their families. And of course, as women, you discuss such things as the nursery and how it will be decorated for the new kiddo. Every once in awhile I randomly think about how I would decorate a nursery. I’m not really one for themes, and sometimes I think if I see one more jungle decorated room that I might have a nervous breakdown.

Today though, I was thinking that it would be fun to have things relating to travel in a kids bedroom; maps, globes, markers for where the family has traveled. I was looking up rooms to see if there are any good examples of this being done in the past, but alas, I didn’t find any. But, I did find this cute HGTV example of a nursery below. I LOVE the crib and how it says ‘Fragile’ – and the use of orange in the room!

San Diego is amazing and expensive

San Diego was a blast. It is beautiful and inviting which are just a few of many reasons that people live there (or so I imagine). San Diego is also though, very expensive. But that’s ok – the joy of vacation, you pretend that money is just paper and live it up.

I promised a few pictures of San Diego, and although they are weeks late, they are here!

I don’t know when sushi isn’t delicious, but this was extra yummy since we were eating it right by the ocean!

Some of the ships along the Navy pier. The sunsets were amazing.

SD zoo was intense, we hauled through it in 4 hours, but we were exhausted afterward. It was worth it though, cause who doesn’t love oogling at some cute ass animals?

fierce independence

I’ve been there before and I’ve been unhappy. ‘There’ being years of my life that I gave up to someone else. Without regard for my life. Just mine. The years that it took after wards to build myself back up and realize what made me happy. What I wanted to take away from these years that I’ll never get a chance to redo. And now, now that I’ve found myself again and also someone I want to be with, I have to redefine my life…again. It’s really frustrating.

I have this fierce independence. It’s actually a quality I rather like about myself and it’s a part of all my relationships. But there is this ‘happy medium’ of all things. I kind of hate the happy medium. I want someone else to clearly define the happy medium and then let me in on the details. Sometimes when I am making plans and visiting with friends I fail to acknowledge how that might make the BF feel. But on the same token, I don’t feel any need to ask permission for anything I do. And I won’t. (See the stubbornness there)? So where’s the happy medium?

I’m heading out of town this weekend to visit my parents and have been out doing things with friends the last two nights. It’s time I need with my friends. But I also need time with my boyfriend. And he needs time with me as well.

I suppose that I am more apt to put the BF on the back burner, perhaps from fear of loosing myself again in a relationship or partly because I know he’s not going anywhere. Right? The thing I fail to realize is that he will go somewhere if I don’t put in the time it takes to make a relationship work. And I continue to forget that relationships, especially successful ones, are A LOT of work. If I don’t give him the attention and love that he deserves and needs, then I can rest assured that someone else will.

I want to put in the time, but I also want friend time, and career time, and me time and family time. How do you arrange your life and wear all the hats that are required to make you and everyone happy? That’s a lot of hats if you really start to think about it…